Why not?

Once upon a time, when an old story started, a princess must always meet the prince.

And the princess must be beautiful, and the prince must be strong and handsome.

What if i overturn the tradition? When the princess no longer lives happily ever after with the prince, and the prince no longer loves the princess, and both prince and princess want to be freed from the enclosed palace.

So do I. I'm not as beautiful as princess, but i want to fly. There's a huge sky above us, but we never explore. We have no wings like birds do, so we can only walk on the ground, step on the earth, never knowing how to make our own wings, like the one the birds are having.

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The three words,
which seem pretty,
in everyone's heart,
but it isn't beautiful anymore,
in my heart,
because,
love is a burden.

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Past has passed, and the future is looming, while you are trying to peer in the present using your searching eyes.

You're not having an eagle's eyes, and so you can't see as clearly as a vulture does. But so what? You have the brains, you can imagine, you can shape your own future.

Past is the past, which leaves only memories on you, no matter bad or good, no matter bitter or sweet, at least, you have something to reminisce.

This year will pass, and another year comes. Present will become the past, and the future will be the present.

It's a cycle isn't it?

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Craning up your head, look at the bird. The bird is chirping, but i feel like it's jeering at me.

Oh yea birdie, i know it's ridiculous. How can a human fly?

But hey, when the future comes, human may turn into birds, and birds will be human.

And the sky is full with human with wings, and the earth is crowded with birds with only legs and hands.

As the earth revolves, the world evolves.

So, why not?

Merry Christmas!

This is a special post for today's christmas. =D

PART 1 : Christmas party in Kiara Park Condominium
Had a wonderful christmas party on 23/12 night. Below are some pictures grabbed from tze en's blog. =)

Girls with their presents.

We purposely crossed our legs like that, because we are superior and classy ladies! :-)
Sherrie, I know it was your fingers! =p

You may wonder whether it was a girls' party but this picture will prove that you are wrong! They are the only guys (well, if include Rajiv who came late, it will be 4) who came for the party, and adrian was cooking his spaghetti sauce!

Turkey! Reminds me of the Mr Bean's movie again..haha

My christmas present! It's actually a key chain, which seems a little too big to be hung to a bunch of keys. Heavy huh? Haha. Anyway, the santa claus is cute! =D

*thanks tze en for the photos =)*

PART 2 : Christmas eve in Genting Highlands

Went to genting highlands the next day after the christmas party with my family. It was the christmas eve and genting highlands was so cold that i felt like having a wonderful christmas season in a cold country, although there's still a small regret - no white snow! Haha.

This clown is a chinese and liked to bully me, as his job is to make fun of peoples XD. The girl besides him is my sister.

A group of choir was presenting some christmas songs in the outdoor theme park together with the santa claus. And believe it or not, the santa claus was so emo that i never saw him smiling at anyone!

Decorations in the First World Plaza.

The deer was there but where is the Santa Claus? And most importantly, where are the presents? Haha. :P

PART 3 : The randomness
Venues : - KLCC, The Curve, Times Square

Took it at a slanted angle. =]

Wow..this christmas tree is tall!

The little santa was like jumping to the tree!

This is really beautiful. =)

Entrance to the Christmas Wonderland of The Curve. Haha

Another christmas tree in Times Square.

Twining stems with thick christmas leaves.

Times square santa claus. Can I have the gifts? LOL

Alright, the last but not the least,

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!
(don't search for me in this picture, because i took it from the web XD)

*we wish you a merry christmas
we wish you a merry christmas
we wish you a merry christmas
and a happy new year~~!*

When i was still...young?

I was too boring just now and so i went around clicking on all links i could see. And finally, i opened my MSN spaces.

MSN spaces was once my blog, which records mostly on my high school life from year 2006 to 2007. The memories washed over me when i read the posts one by one. Haih, time flies, and now looking back, i was so innocent but yet so different at that time, as compared to what i am now.

Below was one of the posts i wrote before. It's a chinese...poem? Haha, some stuff like that.

27/01/2007
回家的感触

回到家
面对四面墙
噢
爸妈又不在了
吃什么好呢？
打开冰箱
净是无益零食
看来
我又要自己煮快速面吃了

吃饱了
洗个澡
哎呀
没沐浴露了
怎么这么倒霉？
好啦
随便洗算了

洗好澡了
望着功课
心想
好懒咧
不做吧
休息休息
之前上课太累了

休息当中
又想起你了
你回家了吗？
在干嘛？
心情如何？
有想我吗？

突然
电话响了
举起话筒
还未开口
对方挂线了
谁这么无聊啊？
已不是第一次了

抬头一望
四点了
收拾书包
出发补习
走在同一条路上
经过同样的屋子
我觉得好孤独
好寂寞
怎么我还是孤单一人？

补完习
回到家
爸妈弟妹回来了
家里好热闹
好幸福哟
终于
见到你们了
我不必
再独自发呆了

可是
我还未开口
你的声音
先传入我耳朵
超高的分贝
刺痛了耳膜
伤人的话语
敲碎了我的心
天
你又来了

看来
我又有得受了

Haha, i should have written this to the school's magazines or the newspapers. It's quite nice isn't it? And really, not to bluff you, my chinese was not bad, especially when it comes to essay. My chinese teacher even said that i can be a chinese author in the future, if i buck up a little and have the passion.

But for now? Huh. Sorry teacher, my chinese is deteriorating nowadays. But what to do?

I'm afraid that i'll regret one day for not having kept my chinese standard at a reasonable level all these while. =(

A tag which will definitely cover up a large portion of my blog

Tagged by Scott...

1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.

2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.

3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time : 2:51pm

Name : Lee Jie Min

Sisters : One.

Brothers : One.

Shoe size : In the range of 7-9. Big feet huh? haha

Height : the same sensitive question again. 163-165cm.

Where do you live : Kepong, KL.

Favourite drinks : Hmmm...mineral water??

Favourite breakfast : huh? I hate bread.

Have you ever been on a plane : Yeapz.

Swam in the ocean : Played with water in the sea before. Is that considered swimming?

Fallen asleep in school : yes YES!!

Broken someones heart : Yea..

Fell off your chair : hmm..i tink i'd never been so clumsy, but i do admit that, i made someone fell off his chair before.. ==

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : I'm not that..stupid, i guess.

Saved e-mails : wow there're a lot in my inbox.

What is your room like : My room? Argh i want to have my own room!

What's right beside you : Coffee table

What is the last thing you ate : Rice, vegetables, tofu, sotong, prawns

Ever had chicken pox : Yeapz

Sore throat : Of course yes, but not now

Stitches : yea, got it when i was 6 years old after the heart surgery, and the scar left on my body is scary!!

Broken nose : NOOOO

Do you believe in love at first sight : hmm..like the one in fairy tales?

Like picnics : hmm..dont know?

Who was the last person you danced with : HAHA..forgot because it's been a long long time ago!

Last made you smile : Smile? hmm..oh yea, when i finally get the chance to go online now! (before this my wireless connection spoilt again..)

You last yelled at : I yelled at many people i guess..perhaps last at wei jin? Sorry i know i'm not lady enough ++

Talk to someone you like : Just smiled at each other and nodded our heads a little??

Kissed anyone : .....................

Get sick : not sick now, but nearly last week.

Talked to an ex : Oops..is he considered my ex? I've not talked to him for a super-long time!!

Miss someone : HAHA. Of course i do. I miss everybody.

Do you sleep with stuffed animals : When i was young i guess. haha

What's under your bed : rubbish? LOLZ

Who do you really hate : Those who annoy me and think they're SO great while they're actually the stupidest peoples in the world

What time is it now : 3.05pm

RANDOMS

Q : Is there a person who is on your mind right now : Yup.

Q : Do you have any siblings : Yup.

Q : Do you want children : If the medicine industry has become more advanced and capable in the future, i think my answer is, yes.

Q : Do you smile often : Think so. But many are fake smiles.

Q : Do you like your hand-writing : Yes! I think it's artistic and..aesthetic!! haha..

Q : Are your toenails painted : Nope.

Q : Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : Any bed in my house. XD

Q : What colour shirt are you wearing : White.

Q : What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday : Preparing for the dinner.

Q : I can't wait to : sleep.

Q : When did you cry last : few weeks back.

Q : Are you a friendly person: How you think?

Q : Do you have any pets : used to have a black dog and an aquarium of fishes, and then the dog killed himself after fighting with other male dogs for a female one, and all the fishes died because of their master who is, me. TT

Q : Where is the person you have feelings for right now : At home, i guess.

Q : Did the last person you held hands with you mean anything to you now? : Held hands?? Many years ago?? Oh yea she means a lot to me.

Q : Do you sleep with the TV on? : NO. I don't have a tv in the bedroom.

Q : What are you doing right now? : What a stupid question. What else can i do when i'm trying to finish up this so-far-the-longest tag?

Q : Have you ever crawled through a window? : No~~

Q : Can you handle the truth? : Sure. I can always keep secrets. You can ask my close friends if you don't believe. haha

Q : Are you closer to your mother or father? : When i was young, i always rejected my dad who wanted to hug me. Now, i'm close to both of them.

Q : Who was the last person you cried in front of? : The wall.

Q : How many people can you say you've really loved? : you, me, him, her, and them.

Q : Do you eat healthy? : Of course i do. I must have green vege in my every meal!! (except breakfast haha)

Q : Do you still have pictures of you & your ex? : Haha. Separate ones?

Q : Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? : I might become upset and depressed, but never cry in front of them, because i suppose, none of those i know had told me any really bad news before.

Q: How often do you go to church? : Oops i'm not a christian.

Q : If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? : I'll be alone with myself only.

Q : Are you loud or quiet most of the time? : Can be both. It depends.

Q : Are you confident? : Not really.


THINGS YOU DID 10 YEARS AGO.

1. Study.

2. Sleep.

3. Eat.

4. Bathe.

5. Laugh.

6. Cry.

7. Watch tv.

8. Play computer games.

9. Go to hospital for medical check-up.

10. Annoy a lot of people haha =P


THINGS ON MY TO DO LIST TODAY.

1. Surf the net.

2. Read my newly purchased book - Memoirs of a Geisha.

3. Watch television.

4. SMS perhaps?

5. Eat.


5 SNACKS I ENJOY.

1. Muruku. haha i don't know how to spell it correctly.

2. Chocolates~~

3. Ice-cream, specially with chocolate flavours.

4. Sushi, and Japanese crackers and biscuits.

5. Sometimes i do enjoy candies.


5 THINGS I WOULD DO IF I WERE A BILLIONAIRE

1. Donate part of the money i have for charities.

2. Buy a new car - i want a BMW!!!! WAHAHAHAH!!!!!!! (which is quite impossible for now)

3. Buy a new house.

4. Pay off all my tuition fees for my degree, and maybe master and PhD courses?

5. Save it, and buy some market shares, of course, prudently. HAHA


5 PLACES I HAVE LIVED IN

1. My house.

2. Cousin's house in Kajang.

3. Cousin's house in Petaling Jaya.

4. Relative's house in Kepong.

5. INTI University College in Nilai.


5 JOBS I HAVE HAD

1. A translator.

2. - 5. No more. Haha. But, i will surely get some part-time jobs when i'm free from a-levels course!

5 PEOPLE I TAG

1. OMG.......getting too tired of this!!! *,*

Emo piece, when I was too emo at that crucial moment

~Written at a starless friday night when i was all alone~

I'm trying to cheer myself up. Desperately trying. VERY HARD.

I wonder what had exactly happened to me. Why? Why do these few days seem dull to me, why must things change, why must I adapt myself into something, and not something adapt itself into me?!

A few months back, we were just like strangers, not knowing each other, and not daring to talk more about yourself. Peoples say time washes away everything but why, why this thing does not happen to me; why when time passes by, I feel even more estranged, even more stray to them?

I always love to look at the clock and think, and think whether I could wind back the clock, turn the time back to when I was still a little girl, still an innocent one, inexperienced and unknowledgeable, but were protected by everything, and away from every cruelty and reality of the nowaday society. Today, I met my little cousin. He is only 10 months old, looking so cute and so cheerful. He loves to smile when he looks at me, and the smile was so bright, and so real.

I smiled back at him, and my whole body was warmed up by something called LOVE. Hey, he's just a little infant, who still has to cry to express his own language, and still doesn't know how to totter without people's guidance. But he does have such powerful charm that mesmerises me. For the first time, I saw a true angelic smile.

No wonder peoples love to imagine babies as flying angels with wings growing behind and a glowing star sticks held in little flappy hands. They are pure, and never contaminated. They are sincere, and never fake. They smile when they really mean it; and they cry when they are really upset.

But do look at the peoples around you. Had you ever believed them truly? If you had, had you ever been hurt because you believed too much? Adults do smile but the smile always doesn't mean a smile. There're malicious smiles, pretended smiles, bitter smiles, smug smiles, haughty smiles, and even unfathomable smiles. When a person smiles at you, you may have tot hink, why does he smile at me? Does he have any purpose? What he wants? Does he really mean it? What is he actually thinking in his heart?

Why do we have to be like that, so paranoid, and so trapped by own values? Because the world has changed as the world evolves, peoples have changed as they grow up, you have changed as you develop into what you are.

Can I go back to the time of 1 year ago? When I was happy with everybody I know, and when I was never alone whenever I was. Can I have the time again, when I could always search surreptitiously for the guy I used to love so much, even just a peek would make my heart throb so hard; and when my friends embraced me with all kinds of love and true friendships; and when they loved to shout at me, 'I LOVE YOU!!"???

Time flees and leaves, and I'm still here, leading a lifeless life with hopes that dare not to be wished and expected. I'm learning, but I don't want to grow up. NO.

Can I always be a small kid, as I don't have to worry about anything, and just be happy forever?